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A NEW START...
We can all remember how or who we were,but the only matter is who we have become. Changing life is pretty easy, pack a suitcase, take a ticket, get in the train and start a new life wherever you've ended up. But change who you are is something totally different even though they are very close. It is much easier to change who you are if you quit everything you were, it gives you a new start. Changing who you are is changing everything, from the way you dress up, to the way you put make up on, the way you act and talk, the friends you hang out with, your perseption of things and life, your hobbies or the way you would usually have fun, it also means changing the music you would usually listen to, the shops you go to, the way you deal with problems and your general attitude. It seems to be a lot but, trust me, it only took me about six months and now I bearly recognise my own hand writting. If I had to compare both, the way I was last year, and who I am now, I would say these are opposite. Last year, I partied every night, got drunk and stoned about twice a week, slept with more boys per months then the years I had gone throught, took care of myself (in my own way), cooked my own food, and pretty much lived by myself- but at least I lived. Thanks to my new school which bearly lets us walk by ourselves because they're so scared we might hurt ourselves or make a mistake- isn't that how we grow up? I have forgotten how to cook, do the washing up, be mature or even who I was. When I first arrived there, I was pretty 'wild', I bashed against every rule and went crazy everytime someone was trying to control me. I insulted whoever stood in my way and whatever would normally hurt one's feelings just made me angry. I then used that anger to keep me going, it was the reason for which I would get up in the morning and it was also who I was. People liked me or hated me for it. But after I moved, I had less and less reasons to be angry. I had a family who loved me and cared about me, friends to relie on... I was finally safe. Is this what changed me? Or could it be the effect of a different environment?
Here, iit all starts agaiin...
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La Jeunesse Est Une Courte Erreur,
La Vieillesse Un Long Regret... <3
La verité de Demain se nourrit de l'erreur d'Hier
. Antoine de Saint Exupery
Je ne peux m'endormir si aucun rêve ne m'attend..
A ce moment précis,
Il y a 6 715 472 168 personnes dans le monde.
Certains s'aiment,
D'autres se haïssent.
Certains prennent peur,
D'autres cedent leur confiance.
Certains n'ont d'autres choix que de faire face à le vérité alors que nombreux sont ceux qui se permettent de mentir.
6 715 472 168 de parsonnes,
Bientot sept milliard d'âmes,
et parfois..
.. il n'en faut qu'une seule...
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freedom-n-spirit18 ans
Looe
Royaume-Uni
Looe
Royaume-Uni
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When we have important choices to do or big opportunities which couuld involve deep changes, what is the best way to feel safe about the decision taken? Is it easier to let things happen and blame the 'factor chance' if it goes wrong, or, to take things under control, knowing that if the wrong choice is taken, we would be devastated by guilt?
How can we even know if a choice is right and wrong? It has been said that there is no 'right and wrong' but only different option or points of view... So when it comes to life changes, how should we react?
Sometimes, when its easier to ignore the pain and just pretend that everything is ok, we tend to lie to ourselves. Not in the way that we try and modify what really happened but we hide to ourselves the real feelings we have towards that. When its easier to pretend, how do we wake-up and finally realise that we have to look straight to reality even though its not always pretty?
Why do we always need to find things harder then what they really are... When we now look back at the problems we had, the solution seems obvious, so why can't we see the obvious whilst we need it?
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When we have important choices to do or big opportunities which couuld involve deep changes, what is the best way to feel safe about the decision taken? Is it easier to let things happen and blame the 'factor chance' if it goes wrong, or, to take things under control, knowing that if the wrong choice is taken, we would be devastated by guilt?
How can we even know if a choice is right and wrong? It has been said that there is no 'right and wrong' but only different option or points of view... So when it comes to life changes, how should we react?
Sometimes, when its easier to ignore the pain and just pretend that everything is ok, we tend to lie to ourselves. Not in the way that we try and modify what really happened but we hide to ourselves the real feelings we have towards that. When its easier to pretend, how do we wake-up and finally realise that we have to look straight to reality even though its not always pretty?
Why do we always need to find things harder then what they really are... When we now look back at the problems we had, the solution seems obvious, so why can't we see the obvious whilst we need it?
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Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday Dear Daddy,
Happy Birthday to youuuu...
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Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday Dear Daddy,
Happy Birthday to youuuu...
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Hope This Year Will Bring You
More And Better Then All Others...
More And Better Then All Others...
I guess it really does ALL start again...
Well school begins in three days and I still haven't found a college, I still don't have any of my school stuff and I'm in a deep need of new clothes... not good! I'm really exited about the whole 'new' thing but I don't want to have too high expectations because I might feel deceived afterwards... Or maybe I'm just scared. I'll be the new one, once more... Looking on the positive side I defenetly won't be 'the french one' :D
It just seems too easy; Here I am, new flat, in paris... new bedroom, and a whole new family...
Three weeks have gone by... College is great and i have made lots of new friends... I love it :D
I guess i'm just nostalgic... don't know why yet, hope i'll find out soon. I just feel lost
don't know where home is... Maybe i'm just being picky on everything, It looks too easy, too simple...
I also miss my mother a lot... I don't know what's going on. I think that's the main problem, I Dont Know Anything. Nothing's exiting and I don't feel loved in a "in love" kind of way. I'm just generally bored... I need to make this life more interesting, i guess. I keep pushing it to the next day, thinking it'll go away, thinking tomorrow it'll all be gone
But it comes back...
Well school begins in three days and I still haven't found a college, I still don't have any of my school stuff and I'm in a deep need of new clothes... not good! I'm really exited about the whole 'new' thing but I don't want to have too high expectations because I might feel deceived afterwards... Or maybe I'm just scared. I'll be the new one, once more... Looking on the positive side I defenetly won't be 'the french one' :D
It just seems too easy; Here I am, new flat, in paris... new bedroom, and a whole new family...
Three weeks have gone by... College is great and i have made lots of new friends... I love it :D
I guess i'm just nostalgic... don't know why yet, hope i'll find out soon. I just feel lost
don't know where home is... Maybe i'm just being picky on everything, It looks too easy, too simple...
I also miss my mother a lot... I don't know what's going on. I think that's the main problem, I Dont Know Anything. Nothing's exiting and I don't feel loved in a "in love" kind of way. I'm just generally bored... I need to make this life more interesting, i guess. I keep pushing it to the next day, thinking it'll go away, thinking tomorrow it'll all be gone
But it comes back...
Again and again...
